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Post by xXBananaMilkXx on Aug 20, 2009 23:54:07 GMT -5
-starts crying- I hate my life,I got dumped,still love him,have to go to the hospital, my pain in my stomach hurts so frickin much.
I want someone to tell me its gonna be fine.. I want somone to hug my and stuff Not giving me fuckin pills..
-tries to stop crying- This hurts too much... I'm so scared...
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Post by Lomps (Nilla) on Aug 21, 2009 0:52:29 GMT -5
Nikki...I understand you're hurting, but having suicidal thoughts is only hurting you more. Things will get better. You want to know why? Because you have, as a human being, the power to overcome issues and make the next day better than the last.
Besides: Suicide will only hurt those you care about, and I'm not sure if you care now, but if you think about it in the long run- you wouldn't dare. This is only piling negatives on negatives. I understand you're hurting...maybe try talking to him and explaining how much he hurt you? Maybe he'll apologize...but if he doesn't think you're the one: then he's not the one for you. You're still young (a little too young, in fact). You may not want to believe it, but believe it, because there are WAY better men out there, I'm sure. I've had four bad boyfriend experiences, and really...I'm at the point where I don't feel love outside of family and friendships.
I don't really care for a significant other, they're too much trouble...but maybe because that's lazy...but they all expected too much of me when I was still sort of new to the whole deal.
Anyhow, back on topic...my point is: This break up will only be as bad as you let it get, and when you're sick it's the last thing you should focus on.
Believe you me, when you're older and look back at this day: You'll laugh. You will laugh your butt off so hard. I know I still do when I think about all my high school drama...and I think "Wow, I was so immature. How the hell did I pull that off?"
As insensitive as it sounds....just think of this as a learning experience. Now...I don't think I'm much help with these relationship things...but I'm just speaking my mind...you don't have to listen if you don't want to...and the only reason I had the confidence to help someone else was because my friend Winter was there to help me tell Vyolet to drop her girlfriend because she was threatening to kill herself if Vyolet broke up with her (and she only wanted to because her feelings for Aimee faded and Aimee became too clingy and demanding)...and Winter and I knew better...we just had to help Vyolet look at it from a different perspective...
What I'm saying is...wow...I don't really know what I'm saying... I'm just spouting bullshit that I gathered from experience and hoping you get something from it. Look, Nikki...I really do care and I wish I could help...but all that I can really tell you is love sucks nut sacks and being sick is the pits until you go to the hospital and get better and that will all ruin your life if you keep revolving around the bad things. Don't dwell on the bad...it'll make you old before you're supposed to be...and it's unhealthy...and if you need to cry-do it. It's healthy and makes you feel better. Of course you get those puffy red eyes and icky runny noses...but you feel better in the long run. Hey, here's a tip, you can take a warm shower after a good cry. It's very refreshing...
The last thing my scatter-brained self would do would be to give you a hug before getting to bed...but I can't do that... But it's the thought that counts, right?
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Post by xXBananaMilkXx on Aug 21, 2009 9:23:41 GMT -5
I feel better my mother comforted me and I cried a waterfall
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Post by Lomps (Nilla) on Aug 21, 2009 12:09:41 GMT -5
(=> I'm so glad to hear that. No magic like the magic a mother works, right?
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Post by xXBananaMilkXx on Aug 21, 2009 15:13:15 GMT -5
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